Okay, so My breasts are A-D, and I've only told 2 people in my whole life about the problem. The first person I told was my ex boyfriend, and at the time he said he loved me just the way I am. Then we broke up, and he told EVERYONE about it. Even though most didn't believe him, because I hid it so well, it still hurt me very bad. So intamacy with anyone else after that was a total nightmare. Last week, I just told my boyfriend of 8 months about it, and he's very accepting of it, even though i won't show him, or let him touch them. He can't understand why I'm so insecure about it, when I tell him that I'm so in love with him. I do love him with all my heart, and I want to be able to feel comfortable with him, but I can't. It also makes me very jealous when he looks at other girls breasts on tv or in movies, but I can't do anything about it. When we go shopping he likes to look at lingerie, and shows me things he would love to see me in, but in my mind, I would look like a freak, and couldn't feel attractive, let alone sexy.
I think about this problem at least 50% of the day, and it drives me crazy. I know every girl's breasts are uneven, but why so extreme for some of us?
I haven't told my mother or anyone about my problem, because I'm almost ashamed of it. I would love to fix it, and I plan on it one day, but I won't be able to afford a surgery anytime in the near future.
I want to feel NORMAL.
